The end. The beginning.

babouska

She looks tired, her face sullen
her built is somewhat smaller than
the younger generation

She is clad in coarse wool and black
her shoulders broadened by years
of hard labor and her hands
contain mountains and rivers

She never sits down she is
somehow always going forward
forward, toward, toward

Her steps are now short but still plenty
her back that of a tortoise-shell
covering its soft contents

When she passes soldiers, they salute her
The priest gives her a silent nod
The youth offers her their train seats

For she melted the steel that became
the bridges, the car
For she crushed the rocks that became
the road, the city hall
For she planted and harvested so that
you can grow

Even in her weakened state and waning last days
her footsteps keep pounding past our front doors
forward, forward, toward, toward

by Anja Marais

By |2017-05-02T12:57:06-04:00June 13th, 2013|

Unfiltered

From Notebook: Kronstadt, Russia, May 2013

The sensory world is a cluster of
visuals, shapes, forms and gradients
it is an ocean I am drowning in

Sounds tumble from doors, windows
and the waves crescendo with laughter, music
a tsunami that rushed me off my feet

Ideas pile up like Tetris in multilevel
abstracts, hypothesizes, revelations
a Jenga that soon will collapse and crush me

by Anja Marais

By |2017-05-02T12:58:06-04:00June 12th, 2013|

Ode to Kronstadt

river

Kronstadt, St Petersburg – 2013

(I)

the left ear of russia

the eye and brow towards the west

key that locks the gate

when you put on your white dress

only then can outsiders walk towards you

(II)

old brick and dry mortar

varicose veins of cracks in your concrete

ceilings caved under burden of ages

the plaster drip from your tired walls

children’s footsteps imprinted in your dusty streets

(III)

incense through the cathedral doors

seeps softly from the warmth within and

touches and reminded passers-by

that this scent is of ages past

its sweetness filled with faint distant voices

By |2017-05-02T12:57:06-04:00May 6th, 2013|

Lost words

birds

Notebook May 3rd – Kronstadt, St Petersburg

Today I wrote a poem, sitting between the pigeons.

It went something like this…?

I wrote it on the back of my lost luggage customs form.

News finally came from Polcovo and I went to collect my orphaned suitcase.

Handing in my official form, now stamped with red bureaucracy circles,

forgetting about the poem penned on the back of it.

Sign here, sign here and sign here and yes you need to sign there.

Now my lonely words are afloat in the Russian ocean of

duplicate forms of black-pen-only frantic tourist scribbles.

The pigeons are still here but the words departed on a one way ticket.

By |2017-05-02T12:59:54-04:00May 5th, 2013|

Sunlight fills my room

from Notebook St.Petersburg Russia, May 2013

Being here I imagine Anna sitting on my bed and whispers to me in her native tongue while the sunlight seeps through the blinds:

Kronstadt, st Petersburg

2013 Anja Marais

8th November 1913

Sunlight fills my room
With hot dust, lucent, grey.
I wake, and I remember:
Today is your saint’s day.
That’s why even the snow
Is warm beyond the window,
That’s why, sleeplessly,
Like a communicant, I slept.
~Anna Akhmatova

By |2017-05-02T12:59:54-04:00May 4th, 2013|
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